Well, we have almost made it through the weekend. Hopefully we will find out good news tomorrow. Liz said that she just wants to know something. I want to hear that the referal is there and we get her picture and information. I admit I am a bit pessimistic about the situation. I was looking forward to seeing our daughter so much that now I fear the worst. If the CCAA has us in a later LID or rejected us for some reason, what then? How much longer do we wait? They are sending referals for about 3 to 5 days at a time each month right now. If we are delayed one month, then that could take from 6 to 10 more months wait. We have already waited about 28 months. You can see what my thoughts are doing. I guess my mentallity is to hope the worst and then anything above that is that much better.
I have grown to love this little girl even though we have never met. I was the reluctant one entering this adoption process. But now, I have a longing to bring my daughter home. This not knowing anything is just dragging me down.
Liz keeps telling me and I try to tell myself that God is in control and everything will be alright. I have said previously in another post that God's will be done. Whatever we find out, God is still God and I will still praise Him. He forgave me of my sins by the blood of Jesus and there is no other but Him.
I ask everyone to continue to pray for us and Myli.